Remember when we were all so beautiful?

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Add me over there, I generally blog more on LJ than here.

-SXM (today I become the bull)

I preordered my copy of the new A7X album, the special edition. The MVI. The whole deluxe deal. And now they tell me it's on BACK ORDER?! I preordered it the FIRST DAY the preorder was available! Shouldn't I be one of the ones who DOESN'T have to wait for it to be shipped? Argh. It just isn't FAIR! *bursts into a irrational and melodramatic screaming fit*

Okay, so I didn't do that. But I am pretty damn confused. Sympathize with me and give me chocolate.

-SXM (this is your fantasy, this is your darkest dream, and it's just become your nightmare, we'll smash your fantasy because it's not what it seems, and it's just become your nightmare)

Almost Easy - Avenged Sevenfold

First of all, let me get my fifteen year old fan girl comments out of the way. I mean, hey. That's what I am, right? A fifteen year old female fan. But anyway. The opening shots.

Syn, basking in the evil smoky flames. This is the stuff angels and demons are made of, my pretties.

Zacky's piercings only enhanced his . . . what should I say? Lovely? Attractive? Handsome? Hawt? (that last one was a joke, kids, don't worry) Anyway. His piercings only enhanced his -insert adjective here- profile. That shot should have lasted longer. Much longer.

The shots of Rev's and Johnny's eyes. As soon as a good quality version of this video surfaces, I will capture them. And they will be mine. All mine.

M. Shadows has a mohawk? Who saw that one coming? Definitely wasn't me. But still, it's the same satanic face, same child-like dimples. Same amazing voice. We love him.

Okay, I'm done. Sorry. On to the real review.

From what we've heard of the new album, lyrics-wise there really hasn't been any of the Revelation inspired, telling the story of the Apocalypse type stuff we heard on City of Evil. In fact, the imagery in Almost Easy is almost what one would have expected had a video for Trashed and Scattered or The Wicked End been made.

In the video we find the band rocking out in a hellish place that brings to mind a few lines from Bat Country. Blackened and dry, the cracked ground looks like Mount Doom, only more CGI-ish. Evil looking flames run rampant, sometimes wrapping around the band members, looking almost as though the tattooed men were the source of the fire.

People are approaching from all sides, surrounding a pit from which the flames leap out. There is nothing uniform about them, save that they all seem out of it. Staring straight ahead, expressionless, all that business. As the people, one by one, walk, fall or leap into the pit, Shadows dominates the scene. With a demon-like grin and an evil chuckle, he brings to mind a Satanic preacher, holding up his arms, set against the red, artificial sky like some sort of anti-Christ.

The only sign of any sort of redemption in this video is a quick flash of Shadow's silhouette, only this time like white light that disappears in the sky. If one were to think about it too much, one might come to the conclusion that it signifies some sort of deliverance. My opinion on such a thing would be that to think it would be silly. The imagery here is not supposed to mean anything other than "See Avenged Sevenfold. See Avenged Sevenfold be bad ass. See Avenged Sevenfold bring rock music back."

The only thing that I can think of in the video which might mean anything profound is the presence among the brainwashed crowds of a man wearing a clergy collar. With the appearance of a Southern Baptist preacher, this could be taken to signify the corruption of the Christian religion. Which isn't a point that I'd really argue against.

Those who claimed Avenged Sevenfold weren't a metal band? Watch this video and think again. This is a pseudo-evil, dark and scary clip to contest anything Pantera ever did. The difference being that the band members here are young and good looking, lacking the hair that made Pantera the stereotype for metal heads everywhere.

All in all, it's a good video. I wouldn't call it amazing, and Seize the Day still takes the place as my favorite Avenged Sevenfold video. But if Almost Easy is to set the scene for this upcoming stage of Avenged Sevenfold's career, I think we can all agree with M. Shadow's statement that this will be their heaviest album yet.

One final note - I've only seen the pirated version of this video on YouTube. Usually I exercise restraint when it comes to such things. For instance, I waited until the album version of Almost Easy was released before I listened to it. But I just couldn't wait for this. If you think that it was ridiculous of me to type up this review about two minutes after viewing the video, think how long and involved this would have been if I'd actually seen it on Fuse?

-SXM (hold me too tight, stay by my side, and let me be the one who calls you baby all the time)

Please pardon the fangirly journal, but I can't help myself.

Holy shit. He died his hair blond! That . . . that's . . . I think I've been rendered temporarily speechless. The only words coming into my mind right now are just random curse words because I am so shocked. Just . . . wow. I can't believe my eyes. Wow.

The weirdest thing is that he looks good! I never, EVER would have pictured Zacky V. with blond hair. It just never occurred to me. But it looks fabulous on him, and that's not just my inner fan girl talking. Really, it does look good. It definitely brings out his eyes, which we all know are gorgeous. He actually looks good with blond hair, and that is probably the biggest shocker of this.

Zacky V. has blond hair. I think it's the end of the world as we know it. (but I feel fine, because he looks great)

Anyone else as shocked as I am?

-SXM (someone get me to a doctor, someone get me to a church)

Hey Jade and Davey. I'm really loving Blaqk Audio, it's very cool. I'm sure that you've gotten comments like this by now, but I had to ask. My question is, now that Jade is getting to have all kinds of fun with synthesizers and keyboards, will there be a "return to the guitar" of sorts in AFI? Keep up the great music!

-SXM

I put an x in front of each one that counts for me.

[x] 1. You know more songs than "Welcome to the Black Parade."
[x] 2. You know Gerard Way's brother's name.
[x] 3. You shout 'YES!' when one of their songs comes on.
[x] 4. You punch your cousins/brothers/parents/friends for dissing Gerard's hair.
[x] 5. You punch your cousins/brothers/parents/friends for dissing Gerard in general.
[x] 6. You know the names of everyone in the band and what they do.
[x] 7. You shop for hours just to find something like what a band member was wearing at a concert or on LOTMS
[] 8. You take time to right on the front of all your underwear "I love Gerard."
[] 9. You ask your mom "What's for dinner?" and are disappointed when she doesn't say Gerard.
[] 10. You start smoking so you can be HAWT like Frank and Gerard.
[x] 11. You ask for Bob the Bryar for christmas and cry when you don't get him.
[] 12. You do dirty things with your MCR action figures and are proud to admit it.
[] 13. You sleep with a picture of MCR and actually have to wipe off the drool stains.
[] 14. You piss themselves when they see them... on the televison.
[x] 15. You would admit to let them rape you.
[x] 16. You go in a rendition of Helena when you hear a guy in a restaurant say "So Long"
[x] 17. You have this/will put this on after their done on their profile.
[x] 18. Real MCR fans giggle everytime Gerard Way says the word 'way' in his songs
[x] 19. You will scream "HAPPY BIRTHDAY, **insert bandmembers name here**!!" on his birthday, regardless of how quiet the room is.
[x] 20. You watch "Life On the Murder Scene" twice a day then apologize to plants.
[x] 21. You often zone out, listening to MCR in you heads, and when someone asks you a question you scream the lyrics you were just thinking of.
[x] 22. You write 'my' and 'romance' around the word 'chemical' when in science class.(on occasion)
[x] 23. When hearing any word even slightly associated with MCR on the television, you insantly freak out and turn up the volume.
[] 24. You eat skittles and drink coke zero three times daily.
[x] 25. You have every MCR picture possible saved on their computer, and admit it proudly.
[x] 26. You have actually read and re-read and re-re-read etc. any MCR webpages you could find.
[x] 27. Youcan listen to a MCR song repeatidly and not get tired of said song.
[x] 28.You hear New Jersy and instantly think MCR MCR MCR MCR MCR!!!!!! (big time)
[x] 29. You try your hardest to mention MCR in any project at school.
[x] 30. You spaz out when they see the word 'way' in books, on trucks, anywhere.
[x] 31. You have at least one MCRSavedMyLife story
[x] 32.When someone says "'fro," you say "Ray Toro!"
[x] 33.When someone says "Chemical," or "Romance," you think..."MCR!"
[x] 34. When you think of New Jersey, you think of Belleville.
[x] 35. When someone talks about St. Helena, Montana, you think Helena.
[x] 36. You've had their CD for two weeks and iTunes says it's been played at least 46 times
[x] 37. You have mixed feelings about the Used. Bert? Or Gerard?
[x] 38. You wake up at two AM thinking about (insert band member's name here).
[x] 39. You view Alicia Simmons as the new Adrienne Armstrong.
[x] 40. You truly believe the Black Parade will come to you when you die (Hello Gerard!)
[x] 41. You believe they should hire you to be in all their videos since you dance to the songs like nobody's business.
[x] 42. Black is your favorite color.
[x] 43. The only reason you watch 24 is so you can have something in common with Ray. (never seen a full show)
[x]44. It pains you to watch Aqua Teen Hunger Force because of the rejection it caused Gerard.
[x] 45. You know Bob is a fuzzy bunny and Frank is a princess.
[x] 46. You wouldn't mind watching Gerard draw all day
[x] 47. You count the days to and from your MCR concerts.
[] 48. You have their tour schedule on a Word Document on your computer.
[x] 49. You've written at least one fanfic.
[x] 50. You'd join the TMNT, just to be with Bob.
[x] 51. You wouldn't mind Gerard and Mikey smellling like shit if it meant you got to go on tour with them!
[x] 52. You'd offer Frank your shower at 3 AM.
[x] 53. Even your parents know the words to Welcome to the Black Parade.
[] 54. You dye your hair like Gerard did a few years ago and lament as that random red splotch at the back of your head fades away.
[x] 55.You scream when your parents accidentally throw away the review of the show you went to a week before. Then you immediately get it off the internet.
[x] 56. None of your friends like them but they could probably write a book on them you talk about them so much.
[] 57. You've Googled their high schools.
[x] 58. You adhere to the MCR Bible, the Ten Commandments of the Black Parade, the Ten Commandments of Gerard Way and the Ten Commandments of a Chemical Romantic.
[x] 59. You don't care anymore when people call them emo because you know they're not.
[] 60. You'd cut off Bob and Ray's hair if it meant you could have it all to yourself.
[x] 61. You relate to Mikey and his unicorn/coffee/sushi fetish.
[x] 62. You really wish Frank would talk on stage.
[x] 63. You celebrate their birthdays with religion. Yes, that means costumes.
[x] 64. You've named pets/stuffed animals/instruments after them
[x] 65. The people in your band have set a ban on you singing anymore MCR at practice. Needless to say, this is a rule meant to be broken.
[x] 66. You sneak into your computer lab at school at lunch to watch their videos.
[] 67. You call your younger sister "Mikey." Therefore, she hates you. But you can't help that she is skinny, tallish and wears glasses.
[x] 68. You plan on making a pilgrimage to Belleville, New Jersey as soon as possible.
[x] 69. You listen to every band they say they like during interviews.
[x] 70. You only tolerate Brandon Flowers because Gerard Way says he likes the Killers and Brandon likes MCR.
[x] 71. Your daydreams consist of commentary on your school day by Mikey, Frank, Gerard, Bob and Ray.
[x] 72. You call Gerard "Gee."
[x] 73.Your friends all get a glazed look when you mention MCR.
[] 74. You've read Ecstasy: Three Tales of Chemical Romance, by Irvine Welsh.
[x] 75. You wrote an essay about how you admire Gerard when your English teacher told you that you had to write something about xomeone you admired.
[x] 76. You're known to wear a black stripe over your eyes to school when you're feeling extra MCR-ish.
[x] 77. Life on the Murder Scene=LOTMS
[x] 78. You support Bob Bryar's solo project.
[x] 79. Even if they went gansta, you'd still love them.
[x] 80. You just wrote and/or read this (or forced a friend too.)
[] 81. You downloaded 'Final Dream' onto your iPod because it was the song that inspired 'Sleep'
[]82. You've watched Dune because the band watched it.
[x] 83. You wont rest until you get revenge on the MTV guitar tech that slaughtered Pansy!
[x] 84. You're starting to look like one of the band members!
[x] 85. Your dreams always have at least on member of MCR in them
[x] 86. You made a cake for a band members b-day
[x] 87. You are known at school as 'The MCR freak'
[] 88. You know everything that is said in LOTMS off by heart
[] 89. You cross yourself apon entering the the MCR section of HMV
[x] 90. You've stared at Gerard's face for more than 10 seconds
[x] 91. You have nicknames for the band members
[] 92. You cried when you heard Welcome To The Black Parade play on a radio station you despise
[x] 93. You have sang at least one MCR song all the way through in front of the mirror.
[x] 94. You are already planning for halloween
[x] 95. You have seen the nightmare before christmas.
[] 96. You have over five pictures saved on your computer of Gerard/Frank's Butt/Crotch!
[x] 97. Your friends are tired of you chanting MCR, MCR, MCR! while watching award shows
[] 98. You watched the movie frank, mikey and ray were in and cried when they died!
[x] 99. You've looked for the movie frank, mikey and ray were in.
[x] 100. The first thing that came to your mind when you heard my chem was 'where have you been all my life!'

August 8th, Pittsburgh.

I'll be there.

SO EFFIN' EXCITED!!!

Due to some things which have taken place in the past year or so, I have become rather embittered on the idea of love. Or, at least, the idea of love for me. Yeah, other people can be in love, that's real cute. </sardonic> But me? No way. In fact, I couldn't even really listen to a song that wasn't bitter in some way without getting bitter, my self. For instance, take Avenged Sevenfold's beautiful track, Warmness On The Soul. I adore that song, and the beautiful, unconditional love it describes. But, for a while, I would refuse to listen to it because it made me so sad. I think, though, that the spell has been broken. Thanks, in chief, to Smother Me, by The Used.

Let me first make this clear - I do not like The Used. Bert McCracken is a jerk and I pretty much hate him. However, Lies For The Liars is pretty good, considering how much I don't like The Used as a band. And Smother Me, well, it's wonderful.

I've listened to that song at least 5 or 6 times today, and I've also learned to play it. I can listen to it, and I get a smile on my face that is peaceful, not sarcastic. For some reason, the music restored my ability to listen to sweet love songs and not get pissed off.

-SXM (I feel irrational, so confrontational, to tell the truth I am getting away with murder)

I was bored . . . again. Read 'em to find out stuff about me. Comment, start a good conversation. Lor' knows we need it.

Perfect Partner Survey How tall should they be? At least 5' 8", preferably around 6 feet tall. What should they weigh? What ever is good with his height. What hair color should they have? Preferably black, but any color except red will do. What kind of personality should they have? He should be smart, funny most of the time, but he should also have a serious side that doesn't often show, but is there. Older or younger? Older by a bit, but not too much. Same age is fine, too. Serious or carefree? He should have elements of both. Spontainous or hesitant? Spontaneous. Brutally honest or tight-lipped? Brutally honest, but he should also know when to be at least a bit tactful. Beautiful or intelligent? Both, please. Movie or a resturant? Movie. What film actor should they most be like? Johnny Depp. What singer should they most be like? Bono for his beliefs, Jacoby Shaddix for his fun/ADDish personality. Davey Havok for his eloquence, Gerard Way for his respect for women and his eternal hope. Should they make all the money? He should have a good enough income to support a family, yeah. Do they need to cook? He should be able to make good breakfasts. What is their best body part? He should be wonderful all around. What body part do you not care about? Um . . . I don't know. Desk job or physical labour? I'd rather he didn't have a desk job . . . BOOORING! What car should they drive? Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn. What one thing completely turns you off? If he has a bland personality, and if his head is ruled by his dick. What one thing completely turns you on? Sticks and stones may break my bones, but whips and chains excite me . . . just kidding. Lemme see - turn ons. I don't know. Depends on the guy. Beliefs 1. Miracles: Yes. 2. Angels: Yes. 3. Magic: No. 4. Ghosts: Not ghosts per se . . . 5. Birth: Erm . . . yeah . . . where would we be without birth? 6. Easter Bunny: Yes! He was in Nightmare Before Christmas! He must exist! 7. Cupid: If he does exist, point him out to me. I need to kill him, slowly and painfully. 8. Sex before marriage: Why is that blue? And yeah, I believe it exists. Will I do it? No.   9. The death penalty: Depends on the offense. 10. Davey Jones: He's dead, remember? 11. Best friends: Yes. 12. People really have OCD: Yes, but it's not as common as people say, I think. 13. Everyone lies at least once in their life: Yes. 14. Ying and Yang: Nope. 15. Love at first sight: Sort of   [HAVE YOU EVER..]
been kissed.. not yet
lied to a friend.. not to a close friend, but yeah
dyed ur hair highlighted, yeah
dressed punk	Yup
kissed a girl	Nope
saw something u didnt want to	Yes
danced in the rain	Yes!
lied to ur parents	Yeah
went barefoot in the snow	Yes!
played hockey	No
made your own clothes	Occasionally, sort of
[IN THE LAST 24 HOURS..]
got in a fight	small one, yes
took a shower	yes
gave a dirty look to someone	yes
cried(	no
did a cartwheel	no
went to school	no
shopped	no
danced	yes
got sick	no
did something u regret	yes, I left the 2in1 shampoo at my house
discovered something new	yes
[IN SCHOOL YOU...]
run to class because you're always late	no
act perfect	no
act hyper	yes
are a nerd	kind of
in band??	no, want to be though
[RIGHT NOW UR..]
in your pjs	no
drinkin	nothing
listening to music	U2, All Because Of You
watching a movie	no
iming someone	Mom and Victoria
talkin on the phone	no
eating	nothing
[CLOTHES..]
hot topic or abercrombie and fitch	Hot Topic all the way
thongs or briefs	briefs
boxers anyone?!?!	*grin* yes
sweatpants or jeans	jeans!
longsleeved shirts or short sleeve	short sleeve
tube tops or tanks	tanks
[CURRENTLY .. ]
current clothes	jeans, black belt, Angels and Airwaves t-shirt
current mood	rushed, tired
current music	Now it's AFI, On The Arrow
current taste	granola bar and teeth that need brushing
current make-up	none yet today, will be when I get off the computer though
current thing I ought to be doing	making lunch
.
[ EiTHER/0R .. ]
coffee or hot chocolate	hot chocolate
big or little	depends on what it is
lace or satin	satin
new or old	depends on what it is
vogue or cosmopolitan	neither
skirt or dress	skirt
wool or cotton	cotton
[DO YOU..]
have a crush on someone	yup, majorly crushing on his hotness, Jacoby Shaddix
if u got a tatoo where wud u get it	I would get three. One behind my right ear, one over my left hip, and one on my right ankle. Each one would be a small, black X
[RANDOM QUESTiONS..]
waht is the online symbol u use the most	probably :)
u have a boyfriend or girlfiend	no
who's hotter, Josh Hartnett or Chad Michael Murray	who?
what was the last thing you said	"here"
who would u want to be stuck in an elevator with	tough choice. *grins*
do you like stickers	yes
do u play with mad libs wen ur bored	if someone is with me
are you suicidal	no
is your window open	in my bedroom, yes
what was the last pair of shoes you bought	black sandals
do you have a little brother	yes
does he draw you cute pictures	no, he's not a good artist
where do your grandparents live	one grandma in PA, one in SC
what do you think of when you hear the word click	a lock
do you like trampolines	yes!
have u ever accidentally sucked something up in the vacuum	yes
did you see American Pie 2	no
do you cut yourself	no

-SXM (and you feel like no one before, you steal right under my door)

posted on the blaqkaudio myspace blog

Friday, June 08, 2007

I TOLD you about the bubbles!

Tired

Probably should be in bed.

I'm writing this instead.

And rhyming.

This happened in the airport recently:

I was on my beloved wireless device, minding my own business whilst having a most certainly important conversation when a lanky, unfortunately dressed man addressed me. He wore a baggy t-shirt tucked into his baggy acid washed jeans. His hat was one of those fitted linen models - the type that would be given away perhaps at a company pic nic or for free with the opening of a checking account. We'll say it was salmon.

As I reached down to open the bag of vegan cookies that Smith and Jade's mom had made for me, the tall intruder cut my treat flow off with:

"You in a band?"

"Yes," I responded, then immediately returned to my attention to my side kick conversation.
He went on..

"So you sound like the Chili Peppers?"

Sigh

"Yeah, pretty much" I responded without looking up.

Next he said, and I swear this is true, "I bet you guys are great to bungee jump to!?"

Me: "Oh yeah, totally."

He then informed me that he likes to bungee jump and sky dive to the Chili Pepper and that they are in fact GREAT to bungee jump to as well he presumed my band to be.

I was deciding whether or not to grab another cookie or just dump them out so I could use the large zip lock bag to asphyxiate myself with. I decided instead to offer him a cookie.

"Oh, hope there not Tikka Tack tribe cookies, tee hee, (wink wink, nudge nudge!") said he. (I'm taking liberties with the name of the tribe but you get the point.)

Tired, I was so tired as I asked sadly "what?"

"TIKKA TAK TRIBE cookies!, You know! They make speeeeeecial cookies."

Further depressed and refusing to bite I said curtly "Drugs? Are you referring to POT cookies?"

"Yes," he said only slightly dejected and informed me of some made-up psychedelic tribe's baking habits.

"NO, there's no POT in the cookies. They are, however, vegan."

He took a tikka tak free cookie, ate it, and said that it was really good.

Finally he decided to take my cookie and my spirit and leave me back to my sidekick convo.

I thought you should know.

There's more blaqkaudio news coming soon. I can't wait for you all to hear this record.


I accidentally stabbed myself with my own switchblade. Don't follow suit.

DXH

Thanks again for the laugh, Davey. (perhaps our dear Havok is a fan of Monty Python? *looks at the wink wink, nudge nudge bit again*)

-SXM, the Far Rider

If only. If only I had been more understanding. If only I had been more willing to sacrifice myself. If only I hadn't been such a neurotic teenage girl, so worried about myself that I never considered the consequences. If only I hadn't gone wrong, I wouldn't have lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness.


Many thanks to The Fray and Good Charlotte for writing with such eloquence the feelings I could never put into words.

I was bored. Read 'em if you wanna know about me. Feel free to ask/start a conversation about any of the answers! :)

Survey One
1.If you could marry ANY ONE in the world, who would it be?
I'm not sure.

2.Do you wear eyeliner/'guy'liner?
Yes

3. If so, What color?
Blue

4. If you had 1 more hour to live, what would you do?
Let all my loved ones know how much they mean to me, go to Confession and Communion.

5. Do you watch CSI regularly?
No

6. If not, what show?
Monty Python's Flying Circus

7. Have you ever thought of committing suicide?
No. Not only is it selfish and stupid, but I am waaay to curious about life. I want to know what it's like to do all the things I haven't done yet.

8. Are you a Preppy Princess/Prince?
Hell no

9. If you were forced to get a tattoo, what would you get? If you already have a tattoo, what other tattoo would you get? Three tattoos of a small, black X. One behind my right ear, one over my left hip bone, and one on my right ankle. Edge for life.

10. When your favorite song comes on (In public) the radio, would you sing?
Yes.

11. Are you into Bling?
Nooooes

12. Goth?
Nah

13. Do you smoke?
Nope

14. Drink
No

15. Do you know who the sexy Pete Wentz is?
Even my mom knows that . . . YES

16. Do you like guys/girls that wear eye make-up like Pete? (Smeared eyeliner and eyeshadow combo)
Yes

17. Do you play/ wish to play an instrument?
I play piano/keyboards really well, guitar, some bass, some harp, a little hammer dulcimer, a little mandolin. Thumb piano, penny whistle, yeah. I want to learn drums.

18. Have you ever been to a concert?
I saw the Lord of the Rings Symphony once, directed by Howard Shore. I've also seen a Mozart symphony, and I went to Symphony on the prairie. All fun, but I'd rather have seen a rock band.

19. Who's you favorite band?
U2

20. Have you ever seen the show My So-Called Life?
No

21. Do you care if people gossip about you or someone else you care for?
Yes. I hate when people talk about me behind my back, and I hate when they do it about the people I care for. I can guarantee that if I catch you gossiping about me once, I'll ask you to stop. If you do it again? You lose my trust.

22. Do you gossip?
No

23. If you best friend was being called names and bullied, what would YOU do?
Kick the ass of the person doing it.

24. Would you sleep with any of your friends?
Well, there is one . . . but I wouldn't on principle.

25. If you were given all the power in the world, what would you do?
A lot of things, too many to list.

26. Do you believe in the motto 'You Get What You Give'? Why or Why not?
Yeah, it's pretty true.

Survey Two

1. When is the last time you held hands with someone?:
Honestly? I really can't remember.

3. Have you ever crawled through a window?:
Many a time.

4. Where is your mom?
Outside.

5. Morning or night person?:
Night

6. What was the last movie you watched?:
Madagascar

7. jfkdsajgl?
asdsg sdhkl

8. Any cool scars?
Scars? Yes. Cool ones? Not really, no.

9. Things about the opposite sex you notice first?:
Hair

10. What do you do when no one is watching?
Go to my imaginary world.

11. Ever been in love?
Yes

12. What's something your friends make fun of you for?:
Graffiti jeans

13. What is your curfew?:
Depends

wheres Q 14?
This is it. Well, actually, technically, this is A 14.

15. You + alcohol =
Probably a bad combination, if I drank. Alcoholism runs in my family. But I don't. So hah!

16. What's your worst personality flaw?
I'm stubborn, probably.

18. What place would you like to visit?
Ireland

19. Do you want a well paying job or a job you enjoy?:
A job I enjoy. No cubicles for me!

20. Do you wish to have the same best friends when you're older?
Yeah, but I would like to have more.

21. Do you believe in needing a religion?
Yes. Human kind needs something to hold onto - it's impossible not to believe in something. Even aethiests must believe in something, whether it be life, love, or liberty.

23. When were you last on the phone?
I dunno. The other day, probably just to answer it and give it to the person that was wanted. i.e. not me

24. What were the shoes you wore today?:
Crocs (my mom's, just to hang the clothes out - I detest those shoes)

25. Do you like math?:
Not especially, no.

26. What about history?
To a point, yes. I think that it's important, and it can be fun sometimes.

27. Have you ever seen 5 squirrels at one time?
I don't think so

28. Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
Yes

29. Do you have a brother?:
Yes, one

30. Did your great grandad fight in the civil war?:
Nope. He was a coal miner. (well, one of 'em was, anyway)

31. What was the last starbucks drink you had?
Decaf peppermint mocha, I believe. Looong time ago - Starbucks is a special thing for me.

32. Have you ever used photobucket?:
Yeah

33. Do you like hugs?
Yes

34. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:
No

35. Do you want to be a doctor?:
No

36. Have you ever fallen asleep with gum in your mouth?:
lol, yes

37. What do you do right before you go to bed?
Pray

38. Right when you get out of bed?
Pray

39. Do you love your parents?:
Yes

40. What music are you listening to right now?
None right now

41. Do you want to be famous?
It'd be kind of cool, yeah. But I'd want it to be for something that was good, something worth being famous for.

42. Do you spend a lot of time contemplating life?
Sort of

43. Do you do your own laundry?
Every other week - the weeks in between, it's my sister's turn.

Okay. So let's get this straight right here, and right now - I do not like Avril Lagivne. I don't hate her either. I think she's a pop princess, not a punk. As a matter of fact, if asked what a poseur was (or poser, however you want to spell it) I would use her as a prime example. I don't like her music at all.

But then, there is Girlfriend.

I don't care for the song musically, it's not my style. The video was iffy - I don't care for the way Avril sings, dances, dresses, etc. And the last bit, where she's pulling off the hot guy's jacket and pulling him into the (bathroom stall? locker?) comes off as slutty and cheap. Actually, I don't really like the song at all; except for the whole point of the thing. Because we all know what it's like. You know this great guy, and he's totally smitten with his girlfriend. The problem is, she's not worthy of him. Why, you might even go so far as to say that you would be better for him. Yeah, I know what it's like. So here I am, all around hater of pop and not a fan of Avril Lavigne in anway . . . listening to Girlfriend as I surf the web. Yuck.

So you want to know why I listen to music. Why does it mean so much to you? That's what they ask. That's what you ask.

What do you see in it? What is it that you hear in this that makes you want to listen to it?

This music is ugly. It's harsh. It's depressing. It's loud. It's bad. That's their opinion. That's your opinion, too, isn't it? You think it's evil. Inherently evil! That's what you say! Don't try to double talk your way out of it. Admit it - you think that it's bad for me. They think it's bad for me. And so comes the eternal question.

Why do you love music so much?

Because without it, I'm alone.

I often forget how much I love a group until I listen to them for the first time in a while. That happened with The Bravery. I'd forgotten how individual their sound is, and how different it can be from most of the other stuff I listen to. I'd forgotten how much I love Sam Endicott's voice, and I'd forgotten how much I love the fact that they actually have a legitimate keyboardist. (and what a keyboardist John Conway is, let me tell you) However, it was not through listening to their first album again that I rediscovered their sound. It was through the 3 minute, 10 second sampler on their website that I remembered how much I love them. And let me tell you, I can not wait until May for their new album, The Sun and the Moon to be released. It's going to be amazing. www.thebravery.com

Okay, who saw the buzznet.com home page today? Who saw the post about the site "Love God's Way"?

I went and looked at the site, out of curiosity. And you know, it's almost a noble cause . . . almost.

Yes, according to Christianity, homosexuality is wrong. It's unnatural, "thou shalt not lie with a man as a woman, for it is an abomination", etc, etc. And the idea of helping people who are developing homosexual feelings is fine. "Are you struggling with undesired same-sex attractions?" That's the first thing you see when you click on the "Gay?" link on the Love God's Way homepage. So what they're saying is, yeah, some people get homosexual desires when they don't want it, and the idea of the program is to help them away from that. So far, so good.

Look to the left hand side of the homepage, however, and click on the link "Gay Bands". And the site loses any and all credibility. Among the "Bands to watch out for", there are some actual gay artists, like Elton John, Cole Porter, and The Village People. Then, of course, there are the usual suspects. (well some of them, anyway. they forgot AFI, My Chemical Romance, Fall Out Boy and several others). Panic! At The Disco and Thirty Seconds To Mars are on there. (let's all ignore the fact that no one in Panic!, or many of the other bands on the list, are gay, shall we?) This alone causes Love God's Way to lose any sympathies I might of had. But then there are some absolutely ridiculous bands on their list of "Bands to watch out for".

Depecehe Mode? Nirvana? The Rolling Stones? Jay-Z??

Metallica????

Frank Sinatra?!?!?!?! They've got freakin' Frank Sinatra on this list????

 

 

Ridiculous.

 

Not only this, but in the "Parents" section of the site, it says that topics in their program include; identifying homosexuals (what, they're a different species or something?), and "What is a sexual predator?" (is it just me, or are they implying something here?)

 

These people are the reason Christians are labelled as bigots and homophobes.

I love blink-182. Theirs is (was?) not the most intelligent music in the world, but it's fun and upbeat, for the most part. Even their break-up songs are bouncy, in a way. Well, all except for the last album, in which the sound of what would become Angels and Airwaves is beginning to show through in Tom's song writing. (i.e. more serious, more philosophical, more thought driven, etc) But yeah, listening to blink-182 always puts me in a good mood, and if I'm feeling down, all I need to do is look up blink-182 on YouTube, and I'm good to go. Thanks, blink-182, for all the good times.

Hey all. I would really love to start a webzine. Centered around music, it could also include current event articles and even a q/a column, perhaps. Not quite sure yet. Anyway, it's just in the brainstorm stages right now, but anyone who would be interested as a writer, techie or anything else at all, let me know. Message me on here for further contact info. And if anyone knows of a good (preferably FREE) server for me to start the homepage and stuff like that, PLEASE let me know. If I can't find one, it could be an email type newsletter, but I'd prefer for it to be like a website. So, if you're even remotely interested, message me.
   -SXM

Warmness on the Soul is one of the most beautiful songs I have ever heard, and one of A7X's earliest as well. It was written and recorded before Syn joined the band. I find it interesting, however, that Synyster is in the video. Probably just due to the fact that by the time they filmed the video, he was in the band and the didn't want to leave him out, I guess. Still interesting though.

-SXM